Back in Fresno

It's always nice to come back home after busting out of a major tournament. I've thought a lot about the San Diego event and it's hard not to beat myself up for not being able to lay those pocket ladies down preflop. All I can say is that I really thought he had Jacks or AK. If I win that pot, I think I'd have been the chip leader with over $150k. But even if he has Jacks... I say lay it down and wait for a more clear spot.

After the tournament I did an exit interview with ESPN. We talked a lot about the inner game of poker. If they're going to use a quote, I think they'll use this one. "Poker is the ultimate battle with one's self." Spent about an hour talking about that theme... started dipping into me having bi-polar disorder, and whether or not it's conducive to the life of a poker player. I said poker was very bi-polar... you have extreme highs and extreme lows. We'll see if any of it actually makes the broadcast.

Now it's time to put it behind me and focus on work for a few days before going out to the Shooting Stars $10k. I think it's ok to bust out of a tournament as long as you learn something from every one you play... and I learned some important things. I don't think I've ever been more on my game then right now, and I am really looking forward to the rest of the year.

Chilled a little with Gianna last night. Her birthday is on the 29th of February, which didn't show up this year. So she celebrates it on the 28th and the 1st. We stayed up a little and watched some TV. It's going to be sad when she starts dating someone else and I'm left to just remember our times together... I guess that's the way it goes, though.